update.

[somehow] i'm [kind of] happy here, on island. 

somehow, cause it's not exactly what i'd described if i were to describe happiness.

kind of, cause most of the time i don't look like happy person.

but there are moments when i truely laugh, moments when i truely feel something, kind of care, which is somehow nice. 

of course there is whole bunch of things which drive me crazy, but still i get something here what i would not being anywhere else, so all in all, as usually since pretty long time, it's worth it, (you know).

and yesterday i thought about piaseczyńska and it was so foggy in my memories, like it would have never existed. neverland.

and i already know it would be hard to get back to the previous state of living (no, not life. living).