well. it's always hard to start. but i have an idea. as my life's going to change... let's call it - a bit - it's good to write some things down, just to be sure they won't get lost during changes.
from madonna's version of bible's verses: lamps are different, but light stays the same. maybe more than week ago i started to talk about this to my friends. i was complaining about lack of knowledge inside me: knowledge about which religion'd give me kind of inner peace. of course, as catholic-from-birth - i started to complain about church. and - of course - i made misteake. i didn't connect the fact, that one of my friend is not only catholic but at the same time - one of the best people i've ever met. she started defence. and - fuck, i'm so weak - in few sentences she destroyed whole my angry story with her peaceful speech. i was like... like: it does not matter whether i studied buddism, i were jew or i stayed catholic but just started to be a real part of church - i'd never gain this kind of peace, this kind of sureness.
still homeless - no place for me in warsaw. still worried - it won't be my place, on las relaciones internacionales i guess. wish i knew what to do with my life to make this beautiful world stay this way and simultaniously be just a lil bit more fair. how may i use myself. all this time, doubts.
Brak komentarzy:
Prześlij komentarz